[Defiant]

A recluse, with a solemn inner strength that ensures every day isn't my last
I can't remember yesterday, how am I suppose to remember my past
This wasn't always my objective, this wasn't always the plan you see
I had dreams, but never succeeded ,now they're just another watered down fantasy
Every pill has been a object through my blood stream
Its killed any chance of girlfriend, kids, so when I cry I dream
What makes me so useless? when did I become such a drain on society?
Whys everyone disappeared? why do i have to live with this pain of anxiety?
Now it time for a change, a conjecture of my final conclusion
The term ex drug addict is my dream, it'll be hard im under no elusion
I've been clean a week, not a single pill did I consume
I feel so awake now, but where I am? Why the fuck am I in this room
Doctors everywhere, am I sick? Am I a visitor? Tell me this isn't fair
Strapped to this bed told 'when you gonna realise you need medical care?