[Defiant]

2 wrongs make a right

I've tried to live a normal life,....for the main part that works
A good pay, a comfortable living, but comfortable isn't one of the perks
'A true worker' boss says 'its the kinda thing he rarely gets when he hires'
A dead end job with a so called great future, buts it's not the future I desire
How do I succeed? At home I'm a different person, we've never agreed
But there's a photo there, that's gives me the inner peace I need
can't commence to a life I don't accept, the picture has me feeling inept
It was our first vacation the strength it gives me just intercepts
i see you sometimes even after what we've been through
But in that pic I only see the lake, the fountains, I don't see you
How can 1 picture hold so much power, I just wish I could amend this state
It's my oldest memory but at first glance it's the only thing I commemorate
I've tried so hard to get through, loss of breath....the heaving ain't new
Even met this new chick, she reminds me of the others, she's even like u
I can smell her heaven scent,....... this view now is heaven sent
I'm taking her for a little trip, will she realise its where me and you went?
FINALLY I FEEL ALIVE.......I feel at large, I feel so great
She's gets my blood racing but she's a mirror image....a homage to my soulmate
She seems upset, 'what's up is there something wrong?'
She's giving me the silent treatment but I sense that won't be for long
I said I see you every day, but on that photo how can I fairly grieve?
In about 10 minutes Il see you on this girls face when she can barely breathe
This is what I live for, to see your last pure breath
That's the real photograph, the last moments, seconds before your death