Angels and Demons
by trajik
my name is gary, but my last name is unnecessary
always been fairly close with my family, but still unmarried
a military vet, but now gambling is my adversary
i've buried myself in addiction, it's very scary
getting in hairy situations, i've survived but barely
to the contrary of my second statement - it's a rare scene:
thieving monetary worth - thoughts my desperation carries
in my library of memories, from glad to sad, they vary
but this is the first time i've made my loved ones secondary
must be temporary though, amendments are later, it tears me
through my heart - simulating a coronary, in my family
heart disease is hereditary, but that's arbitrary
suddenly the air in this area feels like february
baffled, stupefied, i can't find the right word in the dictionary
but i'm scared seeing these figures i assume are imaginary
they're seated by my sides, i hear them saying "listen gary..."
first to speak was an angel to my left, this is what he preached
you're being entangled in peril, change your path, this i beseech
view things from your family's angle, how will your actions be received
your own behavior has a stranglehold, so exhale and breathe deep
envisioning a triangle where others pay for your misdeeds
this will mangle other's perceptions of you, revoking relief
deserving your ankles chained together, with shoeless unclean feet
hung facedown to dangle but that's against my passive beliefs
they've been so kind, they've kept you from living in these streets
you retreated home, deceiving them, you need to be redeemed
before he could finish speaking, there'd be an interruption
by the devil shrieking, i'm sorry for your thought's disruption
wait, wasn't thinking, no i'm not! it was time for me to punch in
the only thing you're achieving with your speech is time consumption
your plan's wreaking of incompetence, i'm certain of malfunction
gary, sneaking around seeking money to feed your dysfunction
i can't see this scheme sinking, as long as you have the gumption
your function in life is empowerment of self, that's my assumption
now standing upon a fork in the road or reverse junction
will you be tweaking your intentions based on our discussion
or keeping direction? surely i'm enticing with seduction
you'll be fighting off concussions, consider the repercussion
of honesty: provoking your family's heart beats of percussion
they'll be infuriated, just persist in your deception
still pondering if it was what they said, or that i heard it
i'm wandering streets alone, realizing i'm a burden
dishonoring my loved ones, revision is needed for certain
i could discover religion or even plea for a purpose
a rescission is best for my toxic emissions, i'm worthless
remission for this disease before my life has to be purchased
my life will improve, like berlin, after tearing down the curtain
so i sit, reminiscing the genesis of this bad person