Personal memories are nightmares I can't shake from my mind. The hurdles, the miseries. Wasted my time. Stick a switchblade in my eyes to forget their faces. hatred, inside. I murder your sympathy. I'm David the tyrant. am i crazy? Maybe. yeah,i am. Thoughts flicker. I'm tweaking. Off kilter, sweet Jesus. Balls in her. She's singing. Gone to dinner. Eating pizzas. Autumn, winter. Fleeting seasons. Offing Schindler. Liam Neeson. he's proof you can change. back then he was known for how many jews he saved. Now he's just known for shooting dudes in the face. Crazy, ain't it? Confusion enslaves. Hands keep shaking. Loosen the reins. Santa's favorite. Deuce in your face. short thoughts. blink and it vanishes. i vanish. sweeped to abyss. no time, no sleep. my dream is dead. no hope for me. weep between breaths. nicotine. smoke it, deep. leaped to my death. i float gently. no reason to live. moments ceased with ghosts eating my leg. Foaming, fuming. Chills in my spine. Mostly human. Villainous. Still in his prime. Optimus Eminence. Hills Have Eyes. Militant, killing it. Healing Rabbi's. Venomous, sip it quick. Feel how it slides?
Still I rise.
Felt like a long dream, just like in Dallas. Turns out Patrick Duffy wasn't dead after all. He was alive. The madness of life. You know, I think on that often. Madness, crazy. waiting on a coffin. I've been savage and depraved for weeks. awake an orphan With thrill in my eyes fit to kill still when I rise from my pillow with knives plunged in temples and eyes. Blood gets spilled in puddles. the guilt. gift of demise. Covered in filth just living to die.
:)
- Dave
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