Rawn, I know this is going to sting, but Uh-Oh is absolutely right, bud. He could have worded his opinion a bit more eloquently, but he is spot on. Rectify this now before you destroy yourself and ruin everything you care about. This isn't about the police, or your interpretation of their job duties, or what you've accomplished at this point. This is about bad decisions with harsh consequences and your inability to confront it. I'm past the point of being judgmental because I honestly believe you don't need a friend right now, you need somebody to step in and tell you that what you are doing is irresponsible and self-destructive. You have lived a unique life, one of which not many folks on here will ever be able to relate to personally. A life that has brought you happiness and heartache. But in that happiness, the heartache is beginning to outweigh every great memory and will eventually destroy the life you have sought to make yours.
Please turn yourself in, take responsibility, once again as you did the previous 2 times, and get past this so you can move on with your life and into the next chapter, where you can look back and recognize that where you're at now is much more pleasant than the alternative.
I know you want to do the right thing here. I know you're worried, frightened even of what will happen when you turn yourself in. But I will tell you this, I will respect you so much more for this. Only scumbags and derelicts shirk their responsibilities and make excuses for avoiding them. You're not a scumbag. Or a derelict. You are so much better than this thread. Than your predicament. Turn yourself in. I'm praying for you, bud. No matter what, stay safe.
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