damn. this shit sucks to hear
i've been where you been @
Rawn MD but there's a way out. gotta get rid of the b/s following you in life
-old friends
-old hang out spots
-old behaviors
-drugs
-alcohol
real shit... once i made a decision to do all that, life got good. it IS good! everything about my past life is no longer appealing nor is it something i'd ever go back to
my prayers are with you dude. be safe and stay up.