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Originally Posted by El Pancake
I'm not dying.
I've actually switched to working out in the morning as opposed to late at night. Woke up @ 5:45 everyday. Sober all week. Killed it at the gym. Early to work everyday. Doing my school shit on time. Eating healthy as fuck. Ran twice. Overall this has probably been one of the best weeks I've had in a year in terms of pure self improvement. But it's Friday. I'm bored and I just want to buy a bottle of Jack, get shitfaced, play some games, and maybe write something.
But then my progress would be all for naught.
I must fight these demons. Oh lawd, pls give me tha strength.
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This week I have been slowly falling deeper and deeper into depression, drinking and taking drugs while all the time convincing myself that I am doing it because it is fun and I like it even though really it's just because when I am sober I hurt too much and I am not strong enough to feel that kind of pain, and when I mix drugs and alcohol that feeling gets replaced with a warm fuzzy feeling which makes everything seem ok.
I have said too much.