[Certain]

in a fortress of solitude having delusional thoughts,
effectively imprisoned by an immovable force,
this vessel isn't special its a crucible lost ,
in time and space searching for a suitable torch,
to light the way off of this unusual course,
the pain of every day is a renewable source,
still hopeful, keeping all my cuticles crossed,
that no one needs to worry about my funerals cost,
counting down the days until my freedom arrives,
but how long can the spirit of a human being survive?,
trapped in a box, incapable of seeing the sky,
fighting hard to suppress all these demons inside,
and ive tried to go to sleep, but i just lay awake,
the loneliness is unbearable, there is no escape,
ive lost weight, literally wasting away,
I wish the good lord would just take me today,
the gravity of this situation is making me pray,
but I remain stuck, forever, in this casing betrayed,
my time is up but im still waiting, delayed,
im starting to get worried, shaking, afraid ,
i have pictures of my last family vacation displayed,
preventing me from falling apart when my patience is frayed,
but essentially I am still breaking, decayed ,
as I dwell in darkness forever facing the shade,
who did I piss off, where did I go wrong,
it feels like i have been in this confinement for so long,
haven't I suffered enough, I want out of this cell,
the torment im enduring is a repetitive hell,
punished for someone else's sins in this desolate shell,
as I linger, accompanied by a most prevalent smell,
so I begin to wonder, how long must this last,
the person that made these mistakes, only lives in the past,
why am I forced to pay, for that collision and crash,
yes he was drunk driving but im the one sitting, abashed,
want to be reborn , want to leave it all behind,
but me and my former self are still intertwined,
see this isn't my life story, this is my after life story,
cause my jail is a coffin and im laying in perpetual purgatory,
just wish I could cut ties, wish I could sever,
but this is where i will stay, always and forever ,