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c.d.m.: You got a serious case on your hands here. Do your psychiatric magic or some shit.
Also immac, that was one hell'uva long sentence. GODDAMN. I felt exhausted just reading through that shit. Your mind done goofed itself on that ghost shit too. I've experienced far more fucked up shit than that when it comes to ''spiritual things'', but I can tell ya right now it's your mind playing tricks on your ass. The atmosphere was there, it was at night, you got into the mood and started questioning things because.. Brains and your mind got to create some logic that you're satisfied with... That's when you start thinking you're hearing shit and feeling a ''presence'', it's just you feeling uneasy and starting to imagine things. Trust me on this.
I've seen ''ghosts'' lady, aint no way I believe that shit tho'. We're talking dead people lying on the floor in the kitchen experiences. Aint no fuckin' joke either. It was frightening for sure, but it was during a rough time about ten years ago. I think I was 14 or 15 or some shit like that. Seen people standing behind me in the mirror at the bathroom etc. It was late at night as well, it's scary, sure.. But that shit aint real. I believe in that stuff for some time myself, but I don't anymore. When you stop thinking about that stuff it dissapears and why do you think that is?
When you talk to spiritual or alternative people that you don't experience it as much they'll probably cook up some; ''You're closing your third eye, you need to open it''-shit and ''spirits will come to you when you're ready for it''. The mind is a powerful tool, don't underestimate it and come to conclusions just because you experienced something freaky. I've talked yo quite a bunch of these people myself, I swear to God 90% of them doing this shit with Ouija boards and Tarot ish legitimately and believes in it are half crazy themselves. But yeah, that culture is pretty positive and filled with hippies so you might actually fit perfectly for that group.
And I aint talking shit about your mother, my mom is into that stuff too. Positive things comes out of it tho', she knows acupuncture and massage stuff. I don't believe in Reiki and healing etc. (alltho' it's relaxing and the smoke they use for Reiki sometimes smells like weed) but yeah.. Acupuncture and back massages are dope as fuck. The rest; Nah.. Aint my cup of tea.