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c.d.m.: I'm fully aware of that. I don't go out drinking as much as my peers. Probably two times a month or whenever I can afford it. Most of my friends are drinking buddys, the rest are skaters and they're like.. Seasonal friends, haha, I barely talk to them during the winter, spring+summer = almost a daily thing or a few times a week if I'm not drained for energy. If you don't think I'm honest about my thought process, then.. I guess you don't trust me enough for whatever reason that may be. May I ask you why you think I am not being honest with you?
I have tried meditation. My mother is all up on that shit and knows it pretty well. She's entered ''hallucinogenic'' states during them and had eye-opening experiences. However, if I try that shit I get restless and it ends up having the opposite effect. I will, however, try out the link you gave me.
Cognitive behavioral therapy is what I went to with my old doc, it was his specialty and I recomend it to anyone that deals with depression, anxiety etc. It's great as fuck. Sucks that he retired because we did get progress alltho' it was a 2 steps forward, one step back thing.
I know I need sleep man. Just started a re-run of SoA. Pray for me while I chill out.