[big baby]

In first grade our teacher asked us “what would people from the 1800’s think if they were here in this classroom with us now” so kids answered typical first grade answers “what funny clothes are those?” ”what is this building?” and then the smarter kids would answer a bit more existentialistically “why am I here?” “where are we?”I think I answered something funny as I always did like “who are all these midgets?” and “woman can read?” the class laughed at the first one, and only the boys laughed at the second one. After a list of long typical first grade answers, coupled with ridiculous, yet insightfully dumb questions “how old am i?” technically if they knew they were 200 years into the future, that’s a pretty good question to ask, but nobody really would answer that, hence it being a dumb question. My teacher (this is first grade) gets almost upset and goes, ARE YOU KIDDING ME, YOU THINK THEY’D ASK THAT? THEY’D QUESTION THEMSELVES FULLY, THEY’D BE TERRIFIED OF OUR ADVANCED TECHNOLOGICAL STRUCTURE AND BE TERRIFIED, THEY WOULD HIDE IN THE CORNER OR REACT EVEN VIOLENTLY. THEY WOULDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THEMSELVES, WE’VE CREATED A MASS SOCIETY, SO UNBELIEVABLY LARGE THAT IT STRETCHES FROM ALL CORNERS OF THE EARTH, THEY WOULDNT KNOW WHAT TO THINK.

And I remember thinking, thomas edison was a pussy if he was scared of a bunch ofmidgets, though my thoughts were a bit censored, and I said stuff like “thomas edison is such a baby wow.” and I didn’t understand that his initial fear was that of his unknowing. His initial fear was that he didn’t know anything. We like to pretend if we did that to ourselves we’d react like someone in a movie - but we most likely wouldnt. I understand that now, after about a thousand books, read, reading about philosophical endeavors, endless amounts of studying, endless amounts of writing, literally burying my head into dictionaries, glossaries, thesaurus’s, encyclopedias, articles. After almost 2 decades. I understand this, and honestly, my teacher was an asshole for that. I was in the fucking first grade. I was 6 bitch. Fucking 6.