i beat a dude up really bad who had no interest in fighting and was begging me not to hit him.
in front of all my peers who looked at me like i was the devil.
in my mind he had it coming. now i just feel sorrow for the hurt i put on him.
basically every fight i couldve avoided i feel terrible about and when i think about it i want to harm myself. instead i sip whiskey and sit alone listening to old blues men.
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