[ill nik-A]

I ask God to give me direction, I’ve been craving a hand
lost my passion & drive while hitchhiking my way to the end
stay be a friend; I need company, got no business being alone
hope u take my prayers seriously I have trouble believing my own
when I was leaving our home, I foresaw a miracle with my name
ignored the flashing lights because the spiritual believe in change
I can reach my pinnacle if I’m trained, just never had a fair chance
can’t come to grips with reality, saw life slide down my bare hands
I shared plans with failure before getting the courage to ask for a favor
erase my past as a waiter & give me tips on how my cash can be greater
can u take a stance as my trainer? God please teach me perfection
I want to be full of insight for the world’s most elite’s perception
I want to be free from life’s infection, deception or any attack
I want to be a part of something in a world where many collapse
I know there’s plenty to grasp, can u please advise our start date?
my heart aches & I want to avenge my ex-wife’s partake
it’s a hard case & I know u’re not concerned with ploys
I’m trying to build the confidence that her words destroyed
now pain talks to depression whose in nonspeaking terms with joy
I’ve already been to hell & it takes a hot minute to burn the void
How can I learn this poise & voice my opinion to be taken serious
Information makes me smarter so reading the paper makes me curious
Sorry to be so invasive, period… but ur knowledge will empower me
Mind strength gives me courage while the old stupid me reacted cowardly
Let these past hours be, cuz it actually served me a different lecture
It was wisdom’s measure that uplifted my mistakes & my gift was pressure
…the urge to succeed made prison better, developing an altered mind set
I no longer want to waste my existence that’s where my faltered time went
My brain is what my prime kept, it’s not over since I’m sober
Rainy days are no longer depressing & could afford to give my shoulder
Not just I’m older, I grew out of the streets I was so used to
There was only one entity when I was freed I must prove to
I no longer know who’s who… but I do know who I am & what I want
I made my own passage & threw away the list of people to call & flaunt
I’ve grown too tall to flunk; I am a believer & believe in belief
Now I stand behind faith as an overachiever that achieved to be Chief…
Engineer, to be clear as I steered my life into the direction I asked for
Married with kids teaching them lessons like a pastor due to my past’s tour
I am so thankful, understanding the value of wisdom as I sit here glistening
I’ve learned from my mistakes & I Thank God for listening