[Diode]

A million miles from my graceland, I'm pullin at my waistband..
Grippin on these boxers as she's lowerin her face, man..
Spittin bout a gameplan, I'm livin it up..
An even though I'm full of shit, I'd swear it on my nuts..
The flow is just too dope, my style gives you hope..
That maybe one day they could cut you a new rope..
To loosen up ya leash when I'm grillin up my beef..
So we can duke it out, no doubt, right in the street..
An enemy to many an I thought they'd never let me..
Do my little dance while I'm sippin on this henny..
My rhymes is good 'n plenty, you runts'll never get me..
An even if you do I'll be dippin dots in bellies..
Wit pictures on my celly, ya girl covered in jelly..
An body shots for you as ya face is eatin shellies..
Then catch me at the deli, just snackin on ya dough..
If the five-oh's askin questions, I'll swear I didn't know..
I'm pullin outta graceland an taggin like a spray can..
Excuse the burnin rubber but I nutted in her face, man..
An tho I had a gameplan, I fucked it all up..
So peace to you an yours 'cos you're runnin outta luck..

--

The Pearl
stumbling across a shiny small object under the celler closet you decide to find out where it came from. What mysteriouse secret's does this object hold ?

[prologue]
Four steps to insanity.. it's flooding my brain..
Looking back to the future.. an I'm never the same..
'Cos the window is open.. an in pieces it lies..
Exposing reality an removing your eyes..

[flashback]
So I came upon a pebble, slender in shape..
It was smooth to the touch with a glistening face..
The texture was sticky, its smell was distinct..
Hypnotyzing my senses right over the brink..
And with simply a drink, perhaps a sip if you might..
The nature of our physics jumped back in respite..
Seeing solids and liquids converged with the gasses..
And absolute zeroes with infinite masses..
Fables were science, ruling chaos by law..
And my brain was aware of mortality's flaws..
It was no longer present, nor future, nor past..
Time had stopped in its tracks to depart us at last..
Space continued right on, just expanding in gaps..
Until both were consumed by a deity's laugh..

I was no longer flesh, for my soul's eviscerated..
Dissipated, into pages of this God's divination..
His information, passed through my mind's inspiration..
producin wretched tales of ethereal immigration!

[epilogue]
I was walking on the sand in the city of Judas..
When they crucified my body and the preceding went through it..
My name is Yahshua.. ben Yosef the Savior..
And I became your Messiah sifting grains for a traitor..

--

I was..
Birthed from a coke fiend upon the death of his brother..
With momma battered an bruised after deliverin supper..
An I was strivin but suffered.. eatin bread but not butter..
Covered up in filth in a closet with clutter..
Playin wit sinkholes, sinnin wit pink hoes..
Gettin babysittin from the hardest of head blows..
Smackin me back forth, attackin 'tween house chores..
No wonder that the luster of this life would come out poor..
I'm fiendin for myself just relievin myself..
All over the apartment where this family dwell't..
'Cos my moms was overworked and my pops was so indifferent..
They were busy breakin chairs instead of givin me a listen..
So why did you ignore me, was I just too much to handle?
Or were the drugs and money better than the broken rattles..
An the neighbors coppin cops, or the hustlers catchin drops..
Or the gunshots to the guts or the screamins from the top..
AN NO IT NEVER STOPS, DEAR LORD IT NEVER QUITS..
I'D SACRIFICE MY HAPPINESS TO HAVE THE SHOUTIN SPLIT..
JUST GIVE A FUCKING SHIT.. I WAS JUST A FUCKIN BABY..
AND NOW I'M TWENTY ONE WIT NOBODY LEFT TO SAVE ME..
Thank you mom and dad, you truly were the best.
You brought me into life by INTRODUCIN ME TO DEATH.

--

Violence doomed me to silence, see I'm payin my dues
Dyin off in the gutter, my body riddled with hues
Blacks wit the blues, once was white n confused
Now my life'll drain away in a pitiful pool..

I was coddled from the crib wit dangerous hands
Hugs were given for misgivins no negatin my plans
So it stands that I come swingin, everybody's a villain
Grown man findin crimson on my knuckles is thrillin
Sick and disturbed, see I'm pissed and preturbed
Mom and dad never even once threatend my nerves
They fed candy to anger, I feed fists to my neighbors
For pillow punishments every stranger's in danger
An Stresses make me snap, snap in ways I can't convey
By any other means but blowin y'all away
Breed violence, seed violence, that's what raisin me did
So every planned parent, god damnit, beat on ya kid
Or they'll never learn consequence, never know better
Young ones thinkin murder one's a varsity letter
Then *BAM* they're deader, just for steppin to peers
An cops'll teach 'em hard ways shootin right thru their tears
But it's destined for me, so say a blessin for me
Since I planned on goin out just as pleasant can be
Tho my faults are realized, fate's sealed on my half
'Cos these'll be the last words I speak to ya ass

--

immo chose a picture for me
(oh, the edit fixed a typo, for any haters)

"Good morning sunshine.."

he smashed in the door, leavin splinters n more..
damaged handles dismantled and creakin the floor..
so he signals the alarm with her slippers in check
red wire, green wire, and one for her neck
shrouded in darkess, shadowed in stealth..
showin scenes on the sill, but quickly they melt..
hands over her mouth, now he's stifling screams..
with white gleaming teeth despite the disheveled scene..
his eyes juxtapose, both lifeless and cold..
to horrendous, defenseless, he grabs for a stone..
it smashes her head, crimson covers the room..
she prays to the lord his psychosis ends soon..
but it just isn't her day, he's ensuring she'll suffer..
he stretches her womb as if becoming a mother..
the bedpost, the knife, the shoddy's own barrel..
skin torn from inside and outbleeding the towel..
an probing her organs, he simply deforms 'em
he's tearing at the walls at which babies are born from
tears comin out, this makes him enraged..
so he's raining vicious blows all over her face..
battered and bruised, slightly conscious, confused..
the shell of her body swelled up and contused..
"please pull the trigger.." - she struggled to plead..
instead he just laughs.. and fleees from the scene.

epilogue:

she awoke in the darkness, encased in a sweat..
with a visage of her daddy, an how they just met

--


6. you find a gun but when u pick it up, you see everything the gun has seen

flashbacks, rehashin the past, they blast back..
to an amtrak, riding the rails in all black..
stick 'em up slow, hands raised wit shrill note..
grab the money, the purse, hop out the side door..
stumble an shake, he getss his eyes raked..
drops the neneh, the dolo, so grabs the next mate..
our next fate, he's grinnin an searchin within..
for the clip that slips in, ensuring the next sin..
a victim, headed down to the avenue..
put the tek to his neck to get a better view..
the bloodspray, crimson where the gun lay..
rests for weeks in the alley awaitin a new day..
an it's picked up, marveled wit the hiccups..
awed by the beauty despite the red dust..
with a cleanin, he's fiendin, drugged up and leanin
solvin all his problems wit a flash of its gleamin..
body, as a shotty takes him out in times square..
get labeled evidence and stashed away somewhere..
to the state fair, auctioned by cops to high bidders..
detective's sidekick every night after dinner..
schemin, tracin the steps of these demons..
shots ringin out as he catches one feedin..
on flesh of females, caught mid-sodomy..
it busts with burst fire as the bastard tries to flee..
expended, each shell spent so relentless..
except for one bullet that seized up defective..
so i seize opportunity and grab it in the night..
my finger grips its trigger and end's the cop's life.

--

Fear and Loathing in..


Well, I'm leaving for a flight in 22 minutes.

Let's see what I can do.

Topic: Fear & loathing in...?

Deficient in my ways, this body is a slave..
Doling out the stressful chores each moment I'm awake..
So depraved.. and incapable of escaping servitude..
I'd love to feel autonomy, instead I'm stuck with you..
Firing your neurons.. necessitating my response..
Hoping it will cease one day.. and then you'll feel the cost..
Of abuse upon my muscles, the pain within these bones..
Please have a nervous breakdown so I know I'm not alone..
Controlled.. you're never seen waning from your post..
But aging lines will soon arrive and cast you from this host..
Out of hope and giving in, till then I'll surely toil..
Until the sands of time are mine, leaving you to spoil..
Soon enough you will forget, soon I'll stop responding..
You'll be nothing but a vegetable, much to your alarming..
So live it up, up in there, that cranium so secluded..
My day will come to laugh at you when all thought is eluded..
Fear and loathing in this shell.. hate and malice feeding..
Waiting for your recokoning, my blood pumping and seething..
You're a cancer to my very core, a parasite unwanted..
The day you die begins my life..

For this, the body's longing.

--


"The journey begins" stated the tour guide to my left..
As I caught a faint whiff of perfume from her dress..
Her skin was dipped in dewdrops, moist indeed..
The scent of her breath planted within me a seed..
Toxic fumes infested pupils, dilated in fury..
My tongue became twisted and I started to worry..
It opened up inside me, unfurling a sphere..
"Little shop of horrors from your mindset, my dear?"
This substance overthrew me into a catatonic state..
Where I drifted plane to plane devoid of any fate..
The visions fell upon me all despite my sedation..
As the walkway then appeared.. I could feel her elation..
Inside these hallowed halls from my past to the future..
Objects came to life as personified movers..
Synapses fired missives, destinations unreached..
And my museum of malcontent was to found itself breached..
Back inside this other world dimensions don't exist..
Joys and tragedies of the Earth leaned in for a kiss..
Sculpted scenes of my youth scowling now and seething..
While portraits painted from the present simply lost their meaning..
"I must be dead", shouted I, lost inside myself..
She threw her head aback with glee and ***kled from the shelf..
Covered in her shades of light, blinded by her darkness..
My mind became an enemy bent on wreaking carnage..
Fleeing from internal flaws.. I lashed out in a rage..
Smashing my head into walls, stuck inside the cage..
Memories sought my demise, hopes and dreams did too..
As I tried to walk outside this hell regretting what I'd do..
Then suddenly the veil was lifted, thoughts no longer shrouded..
The lesson learned from salvia: beware, your vision's clouded.