Sittin alone contemplating in my 2 bedroom apartment,
Heart hardened, unrequited love got me feeling retarded.
Its such a conundrum I need ta stop starting,
I've been played so much that I need to start charging!
I mean, I know, i might scream an choke a bitch
But, if it wasn't for these hoes I wouldn't be broke as shit.
Na really I accept the fact I neglected care/support
Especially for the time I got you kicked out the airport.
That was a such a cold night, just standing in the rain,
Cuz I left you abandoned, without money or a plane.
I should have let you know or atleast sent a text,
But I was busy drinkin tryna hook up with my ex.
I love me some me an I hate all of you,
Karma is a bitch that hit me with a ball of truth.
While I was out fuckin a bitch; to get a ride home she was suckin a dick,
My mistake made her do it but I still called her a trick.
I guess she must have split and I know it caused her sorrow,
Cuz she said "you can call me wat you want just don't call me tomorrow."
Damn.
Reflecting back on how I didn't regret my actions, wow,
Never would have thought cheating would have such little satisfaction now.
I had never been loved like that before,
Never once felt important or that i was THAT adored.
I've never been on the opposite end of the unrequited side,
Until I broke your heart an made me feel like shit inside.
I blame my past, all my lame ex's and whores,
For taking away my innocence the same way I took yours.
With the hatred an betrayal I felt I slowly forgot the truth,
I thought I deserved better; that's why I got with you.
You were supposed to make me better baby girl its my fault,
I put too much on you shoulders and made you cry (salt)
Its all a cruel circle,
one person gets hurt and we all fall in line,
I just wish that you hadn't ever had to fall in mine.
I never intended to hurt you or have "bad" in mind,
Other than when I saw you an thought "damn she's fine!"
I guess this is my way of apologizing for how I acted before,
Sprinkling subtle compliments on a subject that's sore.
I'll end it by saying I love myself more than those whores ever did,
But my respect for you is enormous for putting up with my shit.
I hope there's a place for us in the future that I can reserve.
Where I don't need to love myself; more than YOU deserve.
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