[ 2007 ]
“Naked: My Soul Laid Bare”
You fuel the fire, of this fools desire.
You provide the warmth, when I’m frozen by the storm.
You’re the rock of empathy, attending to my every need.
You’re my ray of hope when I feel life’s got the best of me.
You’re the recipe, behind my success - My ecstasy.
My armour,
My weaponry,
My strength from harm or jeopardy.
You’re the karmic energy, to balance my own ..
.. the calming melody, when I can’t cope with matters at home.
The balm and remedy, that soothes my pain -
Yes, it’s you again.
My unsung muse,
My heart,
My every dream come true.
I loved you.
But we’ve been back to square one more times than I care to count.
You stare and pout, intensely ..
.. Questioning my whereabouts.
Those enigmatic eyes greet my every whim with an air of doubt,
Ready to tear and pounce,
If I so much as make a mistake.
So you wait and you wait, with a grimace kept upon that fairest mouth ..
.. Spewing venom my direction,
In no spared amount.
You’d labelled me a liar before I’d even decided to speak,
Claiming that I was a cheat ..
.. With nothing but lies and deceit. escaping through the whites of my teeth.
I try to compete,
Without having my every statement unfairly trounced ..
.. before you dare announce,
That we no longer share the house.
You rarely shout, but your stern silence strikes a chord ..
.. that speaks volumes,
On this over-possessive side of yours.
You’re always inciting wars,
Our once-glowing trust has waned ..
.. in much the same, way we’ve found our very ideals brushed away.
And though it’s cruel to admit accusations of me cheating are true ..
.. It would be crueller still,
If I had chosen to keep them from you.
Now I’m the vile creature consumed, by a shade deeper than blue ..
.. It’s not the fact that I cheated -
More that I was caught and each of us knew.
I rose from the shell of the man,
Over which this secret had loomed ..
.. and prised away my silent gaze, from the walls of this featureless room.
The unease of my mood,
Prolongs each and every tedious movement ..
.. as I work towards a time, where you and me can reach a solution.
And though it’s cruel to admit,
That accusations of me cheating are true ..
.. It would be crueller still if I had chosen to keep them from you.
Now I’m the vile creature consumed, by a shade deeper than blue ..
.. It’s not the fact that I cheated -
More that I was caught, and each of us knew.
I rose from the shell of the man,
Over which this secret had loomed ..
.. and prised away, my silent gaze, from the walls of this featureless room.
The new dawn seeps,
Through my broken blinds as I lie in a sprawled heap ..
Call me a bastard.
Call me a liar.
Call me what you will ..
.. Just call me.
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