[ 2004 ] props to Forecast ..
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.. on some piece of his i read, inspired me for this.
Looking out ..
.. my bedroom window,
the moon's cleavage in the nights sky ..
As i sit and contemplate ..
.. whether or not im in my right mind.
Scared of what i might find ..
.. if i pry too deep,
These voices in my head,
.. make sure i cry to sleep.
Something's inside of me ..
.. a being of putrid form,
It's speech ricochet's my cerebrum ..
.. & echo's through my thoughts.
I hear it calling ..
.. shut my eyes to try & block it out,
but the voice screeches violently ..
.. " You cant stop me now.
Its pointless trying to fight me ..
.. kid, I thought you'd learnt?
Plus you've already killed ten -
.. one more wont hurt.
Why this sudden change of heart? "
.. Because im fucking sick of you.
Filling my head with voices ..
.. & always tryna twist the truth.
" That isnt true ..
.. i just bring out your dark side.
No one forces you to prowl the streets ..
.. filling craniums with sharp knives.
Stop using that as a scapegoat ..
.. this voice in your brain,
cant make your decisions for you ..
.. when choices are made -
its YOU making them happen. "
Man, stop with ALL this shit!
.. Its listening to you,
that's got my life falling to bits.
Your destroying me mentally ..
.. I really need to think a minute,
Try to gather my thoughts ..
.. & maybe pay the shrink a visit.
I cant take much more of this ..
.. You're playing havok w. my mind dude,
This has to stop ..
.. and its either you go .. or I do.
" You mean suicide!?
Come on, lets be honest you ..
.. know inside your heart,
that you'd lack the guts to follow through.
You're a murderer ..
.. cold blooded, you change in the night ..
The reason you're aggrivated's,
.. cause what im saying is right.
The more it plays on your mind,
.. the further you're enslaved to me.
and by killing yourself,
.. you'd just make my day complete. "
You've fucking lost it.
.. Man, i planned to settle down,
YOU made me kill those people,
.. and i fucking regret it now -
I imagine their relatives ..
.. are filled with hate and spite,
& though it wouldnt mean much ..
.. if i were to take my life -
Id escape your grasp ..
.. your murderous ways.
You're the most twisted motherfucker ..
.. that ive heard of to date.
Your lunacy's whats ruined me ..
.. you're crazy as hell.
" Riiiiiiiiiiiiiight ..
.. Says the guy that conversates with himself! "
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