Before I exited the Birth canal
My thoughts are an infermary swirling like a cumulus cloud
As my corpse is squirming about, I let the noose be my uvula's crown
Staggering emotions, aggravating thoughts traveling waves of provocation
Slashing my wrist open, the aftermath taste like a comatose mint
Tailored in plaid pants and elephants dancing under a closed tent
My inner child lost, closed in, spawning demon disguised with shard toe tips
Heavy perspiring, being transported in a cabby steadying a siren
Mince my arteries to confetti as I close my eyes & let the silence in
Serene Moments interrupted, dreamy whispers to lean forward in the suffix
I see love ones that once been, feeling weightless and now an abrupt lift
Paramedic pray for a sudden rift to contain my vital signs
Visioning the straight line on the heart monitor mimics a wave tidal rise
No love ones by my side, no two step to cupid's harpoon
Life flashes before my eyes while drool wept a lucid harsh pool
In the wake of my demise, their hearts will ache,
As tears trapes a million summer skies/
As life summersault from somewhere high,
tell El Mundo adios
While precipitation conjure from under my eyes/
Taking this illuminated tunnel ride, I see countless cries in my stretch casket/
Death is excruciating, gruesome, vile As paramedic try to revive my flesh cabinet/
Please god welcome my madness in your bosom with a snug grasp
With the sneeze guard over my face as the handlers tug & give rescue breathes
My soul drift like autumn leaves caught in a draft of the coldest breeze
While EMS spar & plead for my life like gladiators in a coliseum
I bid farewell bullies, school yard crushes and so forth
While stomach pumps pry poison pills as I transcend into ghost form
But the suction tubes can’t remove the death I induce from every crevice
As I am far remove from the sheriff who produce suicide hotline pamphlets
They called my time of death as I move towards the light in tiny steps
Let the rope ring my neck, I'm finished, now I surrendered my final dying breathe
I'm Alive!