Netcees - 'I want love"

I've been denied of the gastrated butterflies,
At an early age, I was at an early stage, wasnt fly
Only had a wage, of 7.25, cried with rage as the girls flew by
Mom never loved me, my scars prove so, she never even hugged me
Thats why my life's been cold, But i aint turn no thug, see
Been poor, Been middle class, still wasnt happy,
Cause my teeth were yellow and my hair was nappy
Girls were classy...In the classroom there was cassy,
pretty with the pink jacket, everyones eye candy
My true love, I've had dreams about her that never came true
She liked him, He was like "mad she dont like you"
I wasnt mad, I was blue cause she knew how i felt
But didnt know that i wept everytime i went home
Not because of the scheduled slashing of the belt
But of the simple fact that I was lonely,
Sitting there staring up at the ceiling,
feeling less of a human being,
cause these niggas said fuck my feelings
Like they dont matter, my thoughts were scattered
I've said great things to girls but it didnt matter/never flattered
Elementary Through High School, Only felonies and high dudes
Fuck them bitches at the age of 17, it took me 5 years to understand
To finally feel love, I'd have to love who I am