Netcees - Down And Out(Nomad Collab)

Creed:
Sometimes in my life I was blind to the fight
I would find that the strife never subsided to light.
The plight I was given made livin a struggle
From busting my ass to learning to hustle
from makin some cash to flexin my muscle
I was living too fast and it caused me to stumble.
A couple years passed and a few charges accumulated
The worlds on my shoulders but now I'm rejuvenated.
Questioning everything from motives to shrugs
Because since mama died I ain't noticed love!
I felt hopeless losing focus screaming "why am I here!?"
Defying my fears, laughing, never denying my tears.
Here I stand as a man that bent till I was broken an damned
From living a hustlers dream to reaping unspoken demands.
Lord forgive me for sinning I'm merely human and hurt
So if I die in my sleep let me return to the earth.

Natural :
I'm done, cocked gun, relationship suicide she ruins lives
Neglects loved ones all she do is lie look what the drugs done
I've cried, buried feelings deep, refused to partake in speech
Realizing my own mother is toxic to me i had to push her away
Conscience is clean theres no more hauntings in dreams
I keep em at bay with oxys and drinks paired as a team
Time is a blade piercing the thin muscle causing the ache
Flesh is the poison fate is just made beat as a kid tortured adult
Memories fade, degrade in the volt but I'll never forget child assault
You say that you love all of your kids but you put em through shit
Meth gets more of a kiss by motherly lips than any of us
Problems are gone all in a puff no longer your son consider me gone
I'm dead to a mother in cuffs you made me a brotherless fuck
Im in love with so many drugs mentally stuck spinnin my wheels
Sometimes i feel incredibly nuts an anxiety mess ready to go end it
These ppl wil never understand why that i did it, you must..

Hook:
Look into our eyes step into our minds
You will find the darkness thats inside
Angry and hurt we question our lives
Why are we put on this earth oh why?

Camp Bell:
my place on earth been disgraced since birth
i was raised with hatred words in horror scenes
ma wanted to abort a G, couldnt afford the fee
no basis or basic worth, wit no explanation hurts
now my fates disturbed, was there more to see?
fuck it im lost, a cut from the cloth of satans shirt
a waste for sure, i resort to weed to face the hurt
stating my case in verse...but it's more than keys
its my escape from the worst case, unfortunately.
my whole stupid life is just useless rhyming topics
doing trife without options, suicide is not a problem
to tell the truth, i felt the jews who died in auschwitz
promise, you'll crucify me on the same cross god is
cuz if i choose to die, who'd use the time to stop it?

EndSane:
I question my existence, the steps and positions
How I always fall into the depths of perdition
Man I'm such a fucking mess it's a system
Driving me to a slow creeping death that I'm twitchin'
I guess its the mission, to be dope or fake
Success is bittersweet unless your in a colder place
Always hold my weight, was told it molds the greats
Then the world spins and rotates as my shoulder breaks
Cause now I carry a soulless space that dwells within
Was heaven sent but been through hell since I fell to sin
I can't excel or win...being in humane is second nature
Dammit I never lived, amen to our God blessed maker
Let me direct it straighter, Jesus is far fetched on paper
Were biodegradable who exhale a breathless vapor
Less is greater cause more shit just rolls down the hill
So I married the game of death I solemnly vowed to kill

King
I'm in love with Satan's chains, the bondage & slavery
tonight I will greet Death face to face, no fear, pure bravery.
No, Jesus ain't savin' me. God forbid he resurrects me to life,
yeah I'm disrespecting the Christ-
I'd intercept him in flight & kill'em by interjecting this knife.
Yikes! I'm mental. Suicide is but a few steps closer,
plus if she bends over, I would stroke her before taking my leap of faith
into a bottomless pit filled with legions of demons who seek escape,
because when darkness falls, it'll consume your breathing space.
So I'd gag, choke myself til I turn blue & purple,
step in the church, walk to the pulpit & vomit on the preachers face!!!
Tired of living, lust is a must, a sinner has no place on this cursed Earth
so to whom ever reads this letter, upon completion, be sure to place it back inside of my hearse.
Rather sleep forever with worms & maggots feasting on my remains,
while I lounge at the holy round table with Mussolini, Hitler, & Hussein.
Reality check, well honestly I've yet to see reality set,
but whenever it does, best believe I'll break reality's neck-

..... put it to rest.

Hook:
Look into our eyes step into our minds
You will find the darkness thats inside
Angry and hurt we question our lives
Why are we put on this earth oh why?