If I Could Visit My Past Self
 

I would hit him in the face
For every risk he didn't take
I would beat him and degrade him
For not believing and not taking
All those leaps he had no faith in
I'd make him make the brutal confession
That he was using depression
As an excuse for being useless
Because the truth is he refused
To find the shoes he should step in

I'd say to him...

His deceit and his lies are the reason that I...

..see the bright lights, the white aisles
The wild eyes, scared
The nurse with the cup of pills for my night night prayers

He's why in my nightmares, I see dry wipe chairs.

I'd tell him, go on, wallow in your self hate
Rip the cap off that bottle
Swallow it and tempt fate
Then follow it to hells gate.

I'd tell him that I know he's not acknowledging me
Then I'll watch him as he...
...becomes every bit as hollow as he wanted to be.

You’re kind of moving into poetry at this point. Well getting close. This shit is actually a bit of a mind fuck. Telling your past self to kill themselves. Why not just off yourself in the present ? Perhaps because now there are people that rely on you so you can’t end things. And then knowing your former self is ignoring you , meaning you never thought or cared about the future. Really captivating themes going on here. Your writing has gotten more simplistic in its rhyming but deeper and more thought provoking. Thanks for the read

Thanks man.

I wrote this because I was thinking what I would say to my younger self if I could go back in time to change the dark times I experienced later in life, but I realised that those experiences were inevitable because the person I used to be was too arrogant and self absorbed to listen to anybody, even himself.

In other news, I don't think I've ever enjoyed writing as much as I do now.

I effectively didn't write for years because it wasn't fun anymore. Now it's more fun than it has ever been. It's a nice feeling.

Encouraging people to kill themselves is certainly a choice

Real incel energy coming from you

Camo Yankees hat, bet dude weighs no less than 450 pounds

Cool verse though, right?

You’re projecting. And you lack reading comprehension skills. At no point was I encouraging witty to kill himself you fucking weirdo. It’s a piece of fiction you simpleton. I’m interpreting what he wrote. Are you insinuating that this Irish lad is suicidal and posting here as a cry for help? Stay out of the OM this shit ain’t for you bro. It’s way over your head here.

For the record I am not suicidal.

At the moment.

Quoted this because I feel the same in a lot of situations. It was never that much fun to write competitively because in general you have to change the way you write if you want to win. Which stops you from just doing what's fun and makes writing more of a chore. When you're writing for yourself more than an external audience, I feel like a lot of that goes away.

Dope piece. Simple but effective with the rhymes. Thought provoking content that comes from an honest place, great source material.

I didn't see the suicidal angle as much as a kind of futility in believing that the past can't be changed, even if you literally had the power to change it. There is something deeply sad about that, but slightly different from kill yourself sad.

I champed NWL, you’ve never been in a contenders match

Conveniently ignored this post so I’ll assume its right

Go for a walk sometime bruh

How else is this supposed to be interpreted? You’re fat, stupid, and terrible at gaslighting people

Maybe you should follow your own advice

What kind of watered down bullshit version of the NWL did you champ? I’ve been on this site forever and I’ve never even heard of you.

And I’ve been in many champ matches. And I’m not 450 pounds.

You’ve seemed to have fabricated some weird false reality that makes you feel good about yourself. I saw you having a fake made up conversation role playing with yourself as The Witness. This place sure attracts some losers. Don’t bother with another triple post it just makes you look lame af

Said less in a ‘triple post’ than you did writing out that reply

Were you sweating on the keyboard while typing that?

Also stay out of my DM’s you weirdo, if you have something to say make it public

You’ve made 3,500 posts in the same time it took me to make 980

You’re chronically online

Typical fat fingered Yankees fan

This is like the drake and kendrick beef except nobody's Canadian.

I'm not getting involved but I am The Witness. That was my original name. That's where Witty comes from.

Just adding context.

Love you.

And just like Drake he wants to duck when facts are brought to him