Netcees - Untouchable

Im so forgetful sometimes
I have no idea what i want to write
I got a few ideas er whatever but i dont know what u want me to breakdown
What topics u want me to write about what you even think my writing is about
I dont know i aint got shit that interesting to explain
I aint have the answer im just a man who aint have his own frame
I try my best to get some sort of reason out
Its just theres thoughts running through my mind and i aint have to know how it sound
I think things through or not but im not quite sure what to make of others
I sit back and think one day i wont have a mother
One day all those people who raised me
Arent going to be there...... they just ships passing at sea......
You see im a single child now i guess i had an older brother once
But eighteen years ago his live was lost......
And my mother and father had us when they were very old
But as good as it was as a family all that glitter wasnt gold
My parents are retired i have a decent life i guess
But one day they too are going leave me the only one left
A race, a family, under god er sumn that cant survive
A dying breed a world that wont meet eye to eye
Was the world prepared why cant i figure out the point of my mind
Why am i lying awake in my bed right now not even worth a dime
I wish i could change the world in some ways
I wish there was another path that aint always so filled with pain
There are nice things out there there are ways to enjoy yourself i guess.....
Im a smart boy i know what has to be done so you can catch ya breath
I gotta do these things myself now
I cant rely on anyone else im a big boy and i aint have to wear a crown
Im so sorry to my family and friends
I wish i could explain everything to you in this little text.....
I wish i could show you my whole life in a couple paragraphs
I want you to know what ive experienced even though you might just laugh
Especially my girl, well, i think shes my girl
She means everything to me in the whole world
But she wont let me she keeps pushing me away she aint even speak to me as much
We dont hold eachother at night we sleep in seperate beds i dont even know if were in love
I miss her she sees me one night and then leaves and wont say nothing to me for days
I want someone though i want someone like my girl to reflect on all this pain
I want to sit with her all day and through the night and tell her everything
But for some reason we arent speaking..... she wont tell me her true feelings....
I love her ive been with her for four years
Why wont she let me tell her my whole life why does she play so hard to get when shes here....
I love her......i want to make love to her.....
I want everyone to know that shes my girl......
And were going to be together as long as im still breathing......
This world aint worth occupying if we aint find a way to stop our hearts from beating.....
My friends my family and sure my girl too even if she wont let me understand her......
Maybe this a way of saying im rushing to conclusions and i should consider thinking first....
Please though let this girl be my queen let me fulfill her destiny....
I wish i could tell you more wish there was a way to explain the full story....
But theres not..... all this shit i been through i gotta keep to myself....
I cant explain it all i cant tell you my whole story..... but i want to cause its putting me through hell.....
Living with these things and knowing i cant explain the whole thing to you right now......
Hasnt done anything but make me feel sad and confused i must have forgot what my life is about.....

Er whatever...