I'm going to vent here
 

Losing my dad is the harshest experience I've ever been through. He was my Phil Jackson in life. I have a gf who thinks the grieving process has a statue of limitations and a little sister who I can't be weak in front of. She has her own hell with all of this



Shits fucked. It eats at me daily/nightly. No amount of booze, weed or sleep changes this


I feel like I'm losing my shit. I'm seeing sides of family members I could have never anticipated

I know we all have our own personal battles/demons, but right now... This shit is taking over my entire world

And what's posting it on the internet going to do? Get your shit straight fam.

thats rough dude
how old was your dad and how long ago did you lose him?

Just turned 50. We took him off the machine on thanksgiving

so i assume he was sick for awhile?
does that not make it easier to know that he's not in pain anymore?

Nah man, he was doing great. He was finally getting to enjoy his hard work and then bam brain aneurysm

brain aneurysm is rough no doubt
i dont know what to say other than there is certainly no set grieving period, so fuck anyone that doesnt get that.
the time you had with your dad was clearly good, or you wouldnt be so torn up. there is solace to be found in that.

Yea he was the most grounded person I've ever met. I appreciate the kind words for real


@Diffy, I'm not so obtuse that venting on the Interne goes without cynicism. But sometimes that's a decent a payoff when the alternative is bogging down friends or fam

When did he die?

thanksgiving 2015

He had to go to Paris right when that spree shooting went down. We were all stressed.... He came home and the next day he lapsed into a coma at work

Wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy for real

Yeah, you do you, and I'll say fuck all to this thread. I just think that the best healing comes from within.

Just live your life how you feel how your father wanted, and that will be weight off your shoulders.

I lost my mother at birth, and my father at five... I'm not saying its the same situation, because I didn't understand death until a couple years later. When I grasped the concept later on, I felt twice as bad as if I would have then. It was too late to grieve and it still be socially acceptable. I just had to look forward and keep trudging. I imagine that my father wouldn't want himself to obstruct my own progress.

I don't know your opinions of the after life, but even if you're an Atheist, he still lives on in you apparently, because you are having such a hard time getting over it. Change that into positive energy, and change other's lives how he changed yours.

That's how I was consoled, anyhow.

Thanks man. I related to all of that. Best most sincere shit I've heard in awhile

Mate you got a great gift, 50 years of wisdom and life knowledge has been passed to you by your father who you clearly had a great time experiencing life with. What a great thing to be able to share a life with a man of honor. I hope you find some comfort in that which will ease the pain. If it helps my father has been a drug addict most of my life and I have maybe 10 or so good memories with him from 24 years of life. You got a 50 year gift my friend, every day was a privilege.

Try heroin

Sorry frac boy, it takes time to get over shit like this

Rip brother.

My pops living with me these past few years has been rough, hes 58 going on 107. Smokes like 3 packs of kools a day at least a 12 pack of busch and like 10 perc 5s. He blew his shoulder out and has been in the workmans comp/disability system and it looks like now hes going to tetire/get social security, enough to actually be on his own. The problem is hes literally done nothing physical these past few years, he coughs like a madman, he went from a beast to having a weird withered arm. Atrophy etc. I feel his days are numbered and hes trying to beat out lung cancer or liver damage by stroking out.

While its been annoying carrying him through this im terrified of him having a stroke or heart attack and finding him sprawled out or not waking up one day.

I make myself listen to his same stories and his nonsense because i feel bad lol.

I dunno man. Im basically saying i feel you. This has been torturous because im watching his rapid descent and i cant do shit about it, and even tho im frustrated and annoyed by his existence im gonna be devastated when its over. Nothing really to say to console you brother. RIP tho.

Keep your head up my dude

Shut the entire fuck up with this childish shit.

There are times and places to play an asshole. This thread isn't one of them. Go find something Muff is in and take your faggot RB ass off my forum.

mine died at 49. sudden heartattack. on april fools day. which also happened to be the day before i got out of rehab.

hows that for get on my level.
real talk

That shits fucked. Something you'll carry everyday


I appreciate all the positive feed


Good look@ lars.

I've inherited his house and just recently decided to put it on the market. This place is exactly what I want to raise my little girl in, but shits too much when everyday is a constant reminder. I haven't even moved anything to make it my own.. Just doesn't feel right