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aight. so i was going really deep into depression for a minute there. lowest of all my lows. the majority of it was all put on by myself and my dumb brain.

now im back to my baseline normal status where an egghead doctor would probably say im depressed but im fine.

but yo. anxiety is ridiculous. i've never had panic attacks or none of that but im actually getting physical side effects which almost makes me believe this isn't pseudo science made up to make pussies feel better

im afraid the goon in me is going to lash out if i get too pussy to prove i ain't pussy as this is how i've dealt my whole life

thoughts?

You’re getting too old to live how you do. Mortality is becoming apparent to you and you’re anxious waiting til 30 to not kill your body was a bad idea.

i think the problem isn't how i'm living but the fact i'm trying to change it and good things are happening to me.

also there is a discord and you all are keeping this from me?

i sorta just figured out recently what that even is. put me on so i can ruin it like i did netcees

Lukewarmness produces cognitive dissonance. Do you understand?

ehh fuck it. mods close this

Exactly. Every time. You are one foot in and one foot out.

word

that shit is real

When i suffered from anxiety i always lashed out to regain a sort of emotional grasp on the room. If that makes sense. Idk. I havnt had to deal with that feeling in a long time. I self medicated as much as possible them days. But im pretty happy now and havnt had to deal with much anxiety or depression. At least not the debilitating sense of it i was used to. Good luck bruh. That shit can really take hold of u

cbd oil helps with my anxiety in the ol' pressure cooker of my life.

do you have a preferred brand? I also took a knee to the head in training the other morning and took 7 stitches...now I have to miss my competition this weekend. no refunds. ouch.

They make their own here.

in Charleston or in your gym?

Bottle it up and let it seep out every so often in the form of extreme passive aggression like a real man.

meditate simplify your thoughts focus on the macro and be grateful young one

havent you read the power of now yet

Charleston

Do you battle on this site? You seem out of place. Go play a sport or something..