Netcees - My homies gotta stay up

Right I spent some time away from writing
People look back and they need to reflect on what life is
I hate to be one of them preachy rappers talking gangsta shit
But my life wasn't planned out I aint even know what I gots to equip
I worked hard I put my shit into what I been retaining
But its hard right when you got no one left to blame kid
I was out on the street yeah you can call me a loser er whatever
I wasn't clever I didn't know I needed respect but couldn't explain the texture
My life my world is complex and just like my destiny im ending it in a lie
never knew I would meet the other side since I never even wanted to try
I didn't care about shit I aint really have much to say
I was too concerned with not being a fake or a straight up lame
Im not going be the one to bring you down though
Ill always lift you up high even when you put me through all this shit yo
I gotta explain shit I gotta know more there has to be a reason
My boys left me here all alone my girl my fam left me with no meaning
I aint sad I aint care im hard death is just another part of life
I gotta end this though cause I cant continue when I just feel like I want to die
but im not dead im still here
I cant say the same for roger his life got taken just last year
fuck it how can I go on when that was my homie
and he was the only one I knew who really trust me
how you deal with shit like that
and not turn to drugs or crime like you aint got shit to stack
fuck that I aint know what the fuck the point is
just gotta believe that im real and im going stick to my image
going continue living this gangsters life
I aint need no ones advice I just trust in my fam until the day I die
until the day I die
I wont stop living the way that most people despise
I am what I am no one can take that from me
even though there is no meaning I mean fuck I cant even make me no money
fuck this shit for real
yall know whats up though since you should already know the deal...