Somebody, talk to me
 

Hi.
Whats on your mind. Like right now. But like. The secret part of your mind that thinks about wierd shit you normally wouldnt share cause its just to odd. Or cause most people would wanna know what your fuckin problem is. Let it out. This is a good place for it

Yo. I just got so much bs on my mind. Idk what to even do with it. Feel weighted the fuck down.

This old man, he played one
He played one all on his drum
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played 2
He played 2 all on his shoe
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man came rolling home
This old man, he played 3
He played 3 all on some trees
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man came rolling home

Went to bed, bumped my head
And couldnt get up in the morning

Sup brkn

Lol. Shit. Just in my head. Like.. I been in there all day yo. That shit is a fucked up place to get stuck man.

..like
You ever just be stuck in your head. And just trippin about decisions that youve made man. And where ur at for real at that particular moment. And i dont mean like.. Where you have yourself convinced that you r. But i mean like.. Where you really are in life man. All bs and disguises assife. Cause you know you cant hide from yourself. Or put on that facade like everything is everything the way you can for other people and shit. Like you just lying to yourself but you always 1 up on yourself though like just talking shit to yourself like its 2 people nut its only you for real. I mean like one side is all like man.. Im good yo. Like shit gonna be fine and i got this shit. But the other side. The real life side be talking back like yo man. Cut the bullshit man. Who the fuxk you think your having this convo with man. And you just be caught up like yo.. This shit aint how its sposed to be man. Fuck

Seriously lay off the drugs err something you feel me?

I think that's motivation trying to break through. Maybe give it a listen.

Turn that energy into something positive brother

Go back to school

gone

but yea you are succumbing to compulsive thinking due to lack of worthwhile social activity

which in turn is unpleasant because you are unhappy with the current way you are living your life

stop doing drugs. establish meaningful relationships. develop and find purpose in your daily existence. find a level of ingenuity that will correspond with positive habits.

grow up man.


you not going to think yourself free.

I see how you feel
Maybe you should talk to Therapist about issues

Thus was meaningful

I dont do drugs and ive quit drinking. Thanks. This was meaningful to

Delete this post pls

well that's a good start! now follow thru with the rest.

Deaddd @ Cake.

@Genocide u off opes?

Why am I doubting this?

Ya.
Been off. Still take kratom. Thats it though. Nothing illegal about that or wrong. Anyone 18 and older can buy the shit over the cou ter. But ya bro @Strikta. Been off drugs man

Matter fact.. Made the decisuon to stop drinking also. Diggin myswlf to deep a hole tryi g to blend in with everyone elaes brand of insanity. Fuck that shit. I just sit back and watch the show. Cant standng stand it tbh. Cause its just a couple people who feed on drama. Create it. Act innocent. Ruin other people and then tell you that they dont have any issues and everyone elae is to blame. Im ready to start recording this shit. Im telli g you man. Its a t.v. show everyone would tune in for. So fucking discgusting. But ill tell you what i wont do.. I wont be someone elses fucking entertainment anymore. Fuck that

its the tv show every1 DOES already tune in for. change the channel hommie.

bill in the mail for my services btw

Bro kratom is still a narcotic.

Stop taking it & see what happen.

Sound like one of ya hoes gettin outta pocket g.

YEA MAN

your good bro

i don't know what your working situation is like

im basically lucky in the sense i thoroughly enjoy most forms of "entertainment" on the solo front

video games, tv/movies, to making music and fucking with various softwares and shit so i can fill my free time with nonsense and enjoy it. but i also have an engaging job that gets my mind moving, as well as exhausts me

so by the time i do get home, wanting to indulge in my destructive ways of the past aint really an option. drinking, smoking, snorting, fighting, thuggin out. because 1, it will ruin me for work, and 2, work already cuts into time i where i want to indulge in multimedia entertainment

so how i am now i only got like sunday, where the boredom feeling kicks in

but i've learned to embrace that, and we're only a month away from football season, which is where i embrace booze again. so i'll drink and watch football games on sundays. im lucky in the sense my friends are all so dirt they don't care about football

so i've effectively managed to cut the riff raff from my life

instead of being the spec of dirt in a dirtpile, i'm now a spec of dirt in the corner of a living room of a penthouse suite that the housekeeping never catches.