I'm going to vent here
 

Losing my dad is the harshest experience I've ever been through. He was my Phil Jackson in life. I have a gf who thinks the grieving process has a statue of limitations and a little sister who I can't be weak in front of. She has her own hell with all of this



Shits fucked. It eats at me daily/nightly. No amount of booze, weed or sleep changes this


I feel like I'm losing my shit. I'm seeing sides of family members I could have never anticipated

I know we all have our own personal battles/demons, but right now... This shit is taking over my entire world

And what's posting it on the internet going to do? Get your shit straight fam.

thats rough dude
how old was your dad and how long ago did you lose him?

Just turned 50. We took him off the machine on thanksgiving

so i assume he was sick for awhile?
does that not make it easier to know that he's not in pain anymore?

Nah man, he was doing great. He was finally getting to enjoy his hard work and then bam brain aneurysm

brain aneurysm is rough no doubt
i dont know what to say other than there is certainly no set grieving period, so fuck anyone that doesnt get that.
the time you had with your dad was clearly good, or you wouldnt be so torn up. there is solace to be found in that.

Yea he was the most grounded person I've ever met. I appreciate the kind words for real


@Diffy, I'm not so obtuse that venting on the Interne goes without cynicism. But sometimes that's a decent a payoff when the alternative is bogging down friends or fam

When did he die?

thanksgiving 2015

He had to go to Paris right when that spree shooting went down. We were all stressed.... He came home and the next day he lapsed into a coma at work

Wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy for real

Yeah, you do you, and I'll say fuck all to this thread. I just think that the best healing comes from within.

Just live your life how you feel how your father wanted, and that will be weight off your shoulders.

I lost my mother at birth, and my father at five... I'm not saying its the same situation, because I didn't understand death until a couple years later. When I grasped the concept later on, I felt twice as bad as if I would have then. It was too late to grieve and it still be socially acceptable. I just had to look forward and keep trudging. I imagine that my father wouldn't want himself to obstruct my own progress.

I don't know your opinions of the after life, but even if you're an Atheist, he still lives on in you apparently, because you are having such a hard time getting over it. Change that into positive energy, and change other's lives how he changed yours.

That's how I was consoled, anyhow.

Thanks man. I related to all of that. Best most sincere shit I've heard in awhile

Mate you got a great gift, 50 years of wisdom and life knowledge has been passed to you by your father who you clearly had a great time experiencing life with. What a great thing to be able to share a life with a man of honor. I hope you find some comfort in that which will ease the pain. If it helps my father has been a drug addict most of my life and I have maybe 10 or so good memories with him from 24 years of life. You got a 50 year gift my friend, every day was a privilege.

Try heroin

Sorry frac boy, it takes time to get over shit like this

Rip brother.

My pops living with me these past few years has been rough, hes 58 going on 107. Smokes like 3 packs of kools a day at least a 12 pack of busch and like 10 perc 5s. He blew his shoulder out and has been in the workmans comp/disability system and it looks like now hes going to tetire/get social security, enough to actually be on his own. The problem is hes literally done nothing physical these past few years, he coughs like a madman, he went from a beast to having a weird withered arm. Atrophy etc. I feel his days are numbered and hes trying to beat out lung cancer or liver damage by stroking out.

While its been annoying carrying him through this im terrified of him having a stroke or heart attack and finding him sprawled out or not waking up one day.

I make myself listen to his same stories and his nonsense because i feel bad lol.

I dunno man. Im basically saying i feel you. This has been torturous because im watching his rapid descent and i cant do shit about it, and even tho im frustrated and annoyed by his existence im gonna be devastated when its over. Nothing really to say to console you brother. RIP tho.

Keep your head up my dude

Shut the entire fuck up with this childish shit.

There are times and places to play an asshole. This thread isn't one of them. Go find something Muff is in and take your faggot RB ass off my forum.

mine died at 49. sudden heartattack. on april fools day. which also happened to be the day before i got out of rehab.

hows that for get on my level.
real talk

That shits fucked. Something you'll carry everyday


I appreciate all the positive feed


Good look@ lars.

I've inherited his house and just recently decided to put it on the market. This place is exactly what I want to raise my little girl in, but shits too much when everyday is a constant reminder. I haven't even moved anything to make it my own.. Just doesn't feel right

ya get the fuck out of that house. no good will come from staying there.

as for ur girl, ur gonna find out one thing real quick moving forward, and that is that people who don't know just don't know. if u haven't been thru it, u can't really understand it. grieving process? haha i wish. theres no grieving process for losing immediate family imo. the pain doesn't really ever go away, u just learn to live with it. thats the cold hard reality. this kinda shit shakes you to your core. it can destroy u as a person or it can build your character and make u stronger. thats completely ur choice.

just kick the alcohol homie. only gonna make it worse. cannabis or nothing.

good luck bro

Yeah I lost my father as a child, and am probably only a couple years max away from losing my stepdad who pretty much raised me after my dad.

It will always hurt, but you learn to live with it, you learn to get on with life...there is no limitation to grief, you will always grieve...but I promise it will get easier.

RIP to your Dad and stay strong bro.

sorry for ur loss Fraczilla

Lmaoooooo

well bro, at least he willed you something. i know its no replacement. but its something. sry bout your dad man. if anyone understands, its me. take care of the house. add an addition to it. put some work in it -sell it when your ready and give your daughter what your dad gave you. a chance.

My pops is 69 and my moms is 72 so I know they're headed out soon even tho both of them are healthy and dont smoke or take drugs and my pops says to me because I smoke and get high regularly that I will probably die at forty or fifty years old and he's probably right but for some reason I can't stop....he told me to visit a friend of the fam in the hospital who just had a stroke....I said I'd go visit but told him I don't think it will make me change even though he's probably right...

how old are you, frac?

Lmfao I'm dead....sorry to lol in a srs thread but

2cripple0 parents had him wen they were 40 something no wonder he's downsy lololol



Anyways tho....nobody can tell u anything that will help u in something like this......from my own experience. Time is the only factor. Just got to hold ur head in the mean time. Stay busy would be my best advice.

Its different than that I shouldnt say but my mom had 7 miscarriages before she had my brother and me but my brother died in a car accident when I was ten so now there's only me and my parents are the last survivors of my family name so lol thing is I need a boy but I have no children and I'm thirty one years old so I don't know if its going to happen lol murphys law I guess

Jesus christ 2crip u gonna let being a virgin end ur bloodline?

Pull it together?

How hideous r u?

Can't u just plant ur seed in sum filthy pig strictly for reproductive purposes

Tho perhaps u have the right idea....not sure we need more of u

Its sad really I'm a really nice guy and I know I deserve better but I can't go back in time I miss my fam so much and I would love to go in more detail but there's too much for me to say and people like bags just take people personal identity like a racist basically so I almost killed myself when I was twelve after my brother died and then the scar remains eighteen/nineteen years later and basically my whole persona because of it and now I have a different view when it comes to people who make fun or diss people and I think it shows in my writing checkout my battles in the writers league in season five and you might comprehend why one does what it is he does but lol yes many people have said the same thing "I'm young I still have a chance" so ty bags for your opinion

Oh yea fuck u too. Racist? Wat race r u? Retard? We r done here fuckface.

^I identify with this right here, all of it, 100%, trust.


If nothing else helps, just know that there's somebody else out there that went through the same exact thing. Not only is losing your pops painful, but then all these family members that you thought you were tight with coming out the woodworks scurrying up like bitch ass rats trying to nibble on crumbs and happiness is also a swift spinning heel kick to the dick region.

It definitely tests who your real people are and it's sad but a must that some niggas get dropped from the roster or at least benched until you can look at their rat faces again.

To me, this is just that type of shit you really got to go through to know how dickbreaking it truly is. It's hard to prepare somebody for this typa shit tbh.

Yeah I don't get it either stone henge too many battles vicious roastery been hit in the head too many times uhh sofa krush

And @Bags don't take my shit personally you a good dude I don't care what you are but the drugs made me want to finally recognize you in front of the basketball court telling me to know who wrote which songs and shit I ain't dogging just too interesting

I literally don't understand words the same as u do?

You right I'm speechless my jaw been wired shut like a pit bull with a lock jaw I know my writing these words has happened because of lack of connection and I'm doing everything on my cell phone but aye continue your bereavement of the words in my dictionary or my sloppy daphney Wendy's and arbies IHOP too many times always more to the story

click "New Thread" and just start typing bruh

we're all friends here

Cheers I take life seriously even the most innocent shit leaves me wingin

Damn frac situation is tough but 2 triple really got some shit he need to work out

Nah I'm good just at the point in my life where things are moving too fast i can't catch things as quickly as I used to same thing happened to a friend of mine a bit older than me mate I can barely remember half my life like I said the world flashing before my eyes an immortal life is all I want I don't want to die if I truly believe it it just might happen