Because occams razor.

Worst thread of 2013.

I just make the complex simple. And ask questions you cant answer.
Especially since all you do is hear everything I dont say and nothing I do. I have studied evolution trust me. Enough to knkw it is a lie. GOD MADE MAN.

Thanks for all the help Veritas, I will sleep better now.

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do me hard

Vert come with your reply now.

aero you compensate. alot.

I am sorry, but to what Greg?

This

That's all you got? Disappointed.

its true though. amiwrong?

I do compensate a lot but that's only bc I have two employees.

lol, i love this shit...

go ahead and hit me up V --- I try to self evaluate a shit load to improve as person, and somewhat ironically, this thread made me self evaluate my self evaluation process haha...

So the first thing that came to mind for me was that I probably over-rely on a somewhat subjective sense of 'altruism' as a key defense mechanism --- but again, I like what you do, so drill deep with the truth so it hurts just enough that I make the move to feel better :)

wow mind ass-sasfag is suchhhh a fagg0t

For this discussion to take place we have to establish exactly what I mean by ''fate'' and what the word means to me. I use that term loosely and not followed by a set standard or anything like that, I use it as a word to describe a persons story and the journey it takes the being on, and rather than life itself already having a set path which the word ''fate'' rests upon, I believe you are in charge of your own fate even tho' you get pushed out of balance every now and then. However, trying to figure out why something happened and spending countless of hours on finding answers to things impossible to figure out unless the people in question are present is something I mostly look upon as a waste of time. Hence the reason to why I don't think I'm in denial. I don't deny possible mental issues I may, or may not, have either and I'm always open to solutions and ways to better myself.

As far as it comes to what I believe my ''fate'' is, I think it's learning how to think less and being more down to earth while being put through different obstacles at all times like anyone else. I can not predict my reactions to certain hardships or how my mental health will be in the future, but I feel it rests a lot on how I choose to take charge of my own life and regain stability in both my sleep and thinking pattern right now and how I learn to grow from it. My ''fate'' also revolves a lot around accepting that things are like they are; accepting rather than wondering why I haven't met the girl I'd like to be with yet and why I'm not emotionally open enough to try something real with those I know from before, accepting instead of pondering why I can't sleep beside of the fact it seems I have excess energy at almost all times, my past, and so on.. Perhaps I am struggling with denial since it seems like I'm circulating the issues and analyzing them as much as possible before I get to the core of the problem at hand? I don't know, but I think my fate is that I have to learn to come to terms with myself and who I am in any situation since anxiety is a huge part of who I am today, but not how I act. I'm actually struggling a bit with that right now, I feel like I'm misplaced while doing the things I want rather than being in denial tbh. It's as if I push through the denial stage and learn to be myself again through that process. Sleep is hardly a part of it, but its present for sure. If it's of any interest my dreams are often self reflective and often an eye opener to me, I think that's a pretty strong indicator that I want to evolve out of this shit.

you intellecualize, you rationalize....shall I continue>?

you are a special case, because your spirituality is muddled....but seeking it's own expression, which puts you paradoxically head and shoulders above these demons, but at the same time right in line for the pharisee's hell. you come off as understanding the way things work, when we know that is just a reaction formation. You are trapped here with the rest of us brother.

this was a good post, a solid start, if you were sitting in my office, I would call to your mind how you firstly stated that you didn't think you were in denial, then later on said maybe you were. I would ask you to go on a quest to know that you know that know, instead of operating mentally from an un-solid foundation.

this was good though.

you saying you WANT TO evolve out of this, is a great first step!

word up, good analysis --- particularly the underlying message

i'm misunderstood on the intellectualizing part though bro... if anything i devalue it more than most because of what left brained thinking did to trap me for so long --- but others value it so much these days, that they assume i put value in it too... but clearly you're so right to bring it up, as it's a major effin part of my journey of unlearning smart to knowing wise.

absolutely trapped though! and hope i dont come off as if i think i am in any other place than the one we're all sharing -- cuz it's def. not a holier than thou type facade i'm tryna put up --- more like a "oooh shit, i had the click, maybe sharing something with someone can help them, which will help me, which will help us", you know what i mean?

i have started praying to be more humble though. added it in my nightly 'mantra'/prayer --> really each word being the next step in my journey, for each new phase.

"God, help me to be Courageous, Selfless, Loving, Patient, Peaceful and Humble. Help me to be a great husband, a great father, and a great human being -- and help me to always Remember".

and i know you know the importance of the last word there ;)


good looks friend --- i'll revisit and improve :D