I can't write like I used to

Now I just catch a whim every couple months or so and am able to pump out one om piece that I like. I don't wanna force it even though it would probably help me.

This is why I came back. I was defining myself almost entirely by work. So I figured it was either this or getting a girlfriend.

This is cheaper and less stressful, and I don't have to live with mediocrity.

Fuck that's growing up I guess, ever since I started teaching it's defined me way more than I'd like it to. Not to mention I feel a good decade older than I actually am.

I work a job I'm good at and hate every second of it. Decent pay.

I think about being a vagabond a lot.

I have serious obligations to tend to, though.

I'd love nothing more than to write all day poor as shit. Even if I never made a living of it, which is beyond likely, at least I'd enjoy it.

After I read Walden, I realized that's all I'd really like to do

Henry David Thoreau was a boss ass bitch

@Certain are there check in due dates or is it just a courtesy?

whoa wat a min how the hell did my record jump from 4-4 to 4-7 after one round?

I looked it up because I knew you had more than four losses last season alone. You went 3-5 last season, 0-1 in last season's playoffs, 1-0 in the Writing Challenge League and 0-1 this season.

ahh okay I didn't realize the writing challenge thing affected the records an I forgot about the ones lol dammit now I gotta go 3-0 to break even and be satisfied again.
I gotta computer now, I can do it :D

Don't call me peanut!

we're millennials bro. I've been feeling that exact way for the past 5 years, no joke. that's why I'm satiating my wanderlust and moving to Korea in the fall.

I like my job, but I want to be more than it.

literally lol'd.

a/s/l

I like teaching, too. I see it more of a fallback now. I feel like I'm capable of doing a lot more than teaching, which sounds pretentious but fuck if I don't feel that way. idk, I don't wanna pour too much into this rant, cuz I could ramble on about this existential crisis of mine for days - that's really defined me much more than my job in my own reflection.

YOU GET AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS! AND YOU GET AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS! AND YOU GET AN EXISTENTIAL CRISIS! EXISTENTIAL CRISES FOR EVERYBODY!

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I wanna be a professor though

Your rants could be insightful

fIG's shoulder is here for you

lmfaoooo

Refer to big baby's prediction lol. That is so 1999!!!

Bayside used to be the band that I listened to on the bus back in highschool. It might have even been the reason I made it to 2nd period before I fled each time. Love that band

I just interview well. I have no concrete fallback. I envy people with concrete options. Caring about sounding pretentious is a completely Internet thing.

I've quoted this a few times and I'm sure more notable people have said something to the same effect but my favorite quote from anyone on netcees is Split Eight saying "if the internet went away I think everyone would be a little relieved." One of the most concise and intelligent things I've ever read. I do miss the opportunity to not see everything everyone has to say. To be yourself, and to try hard and brag without being shit on. Whether you choose not to admit to it or understand it, the internet effects every fucking thing. It's a huge boon to society but a pain to every single one.

Alcohol's cool.

Do you mean intentionally sounding pretentious is an Internet thing? I think that more than worrying about sounding pretentious, but your statement could be read either way.

I don't know. I think pretentiousness rose with the Internet. Yuppies were looked down on back in the day. Now hipsterism is at a high because of pretentiousness.

But maybe that's different than the self-confidence you are discussing. It's a different type of pretense.

I deleted my comment now you look stupid. Stupid double posting Certain.

I'm just posting on instinct. I could articulate my point more clearly sober, obviously.

Back button for the win.

Anyway, I actually liked where this conversation was going, then you got all worried about showing your true colors like a millennial. Let me in, El Pancake. Let me in.

let him in lil silver dollar :)

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this is ruining my life. anyone else like this?

I'm talking about out and out confidence. 'Hipsterism' is just a brash form of insecurity.

I have a few dozens responses to this but I don't think they apply logically in my current state.

"Bear Necessities" or "Hakuna Matata"?

That makes sense.

I have a lot of confidence in myself and my opinions and get called weird for it, here, there and everywhere. I also get called weird for other reasons. But mostly people are just taken aback by anyone willing to both reveal and detail their actual opinions.

I'm going to watch True Detective now because I never got to it last night. But maybe we can have existential crises together sometime.

no but im sure i can ruin your life better.


like, sexually.

I'm voting for dyed every week from here on out, just to let everyone know.

Lets. Although I won't be drunk so I'll probably just respond with 'lol' and move on.

@dyedinthewool that shit is laced, I swear I have black outs when I start eating it.

Cake I'm glad you mentioned that about people being relieved if the internet went away. I know I would. Social media has completely made being a narcissistic acceptable, even expected.

I think being a self-aware person makes it hard to cope with the internet/social media in particular. Facebook gives me a weird social anxiety, something that actual human interaction never has. Even me saying "I know that sounds pretentious" as a preface is second-nature at this point, and no doubt the direct result from me dwelling on how I'm perceived by others, which is magnified by the internet.

yeah I'm both hungry and high in a tweaky, introspective kind of way. by tomorrow I'll act like none of this happened.

Same.

In my mind I've never made a drunk post on nessy's despite drunk posts making up 15% of my posts here. I wake up and act like they didn't happen. Thing is, if I don't care, they didn't. That's how I'm starting to act towards the internet. I want to get to the point where I don't need it. That'll never happen but I want to get as close to that point as possible. Got a long way to go.

Anyone wanna collab in the om? I got 8 so far

^ what's the subject matter?

I actually I admire that in people.

I got -30 but I'm willing to tap the reserves if I can feed off your energy. I needta sharpen up.