i'm sorry i don't speak white trash can you pls translate now that @Strikta is gone we don't have a native speaker

the diode/finny dynamic is one i'll never understand.

diode goes out of his way to be a miserable cunt to him, and finny goes out of his way to engage him and try and sway him.

why either of you engage with eachother makes no sense to me lol

white man problems

:(

It's literally a case of under privileged vs over privileged. Diode wishes so bad he had half my talent and charm. Instead he's got gobs of money and he's miserable.

Whereas I'm broke as shit and just hate everyone who thinks they got it better than me.

lol af @ you having talent, charm, or success

YES SO MISERABLE I WISH I WAS FINNY WAHHHHHH

Obv.

hey man get any new mugshots lately

Oh yeah, creepy mother fucker went and found my last arrest record.

You're so weird man.

just trying to live the dirt life vicariously through you boo

Like I said, obv.

12/13/16

subject has become selfaware

I think this is part of your problem fin. Youre framing this in a way to make you feel better about yourself. This is not a question of privilege. It's a case study in decision making. Every time you are faced with decisions you make shit choices. Diode, for every bit of northeast jersey shore douche he can be, made better life decisions and is now reaping the benefits. And that bothers you because he rubs it in your face. And youre pissed because you come from the same place and grew up together (on the internet) Except now he has a good job, a nice house, a wife, and all the fixings of the American dream. And youre still in community college aspiring to be a Taco Bell manager with a life time of regret in your relationship and life decisions.

Lol

OK dr Phil.

Or maybe I just hate my situation, period. And diode is literally one of 7 billion other people who have it better off than me.

Don't give diode too much credit, he doesn't deserve it.

Funny thing is, I know I'm a loser. I've admitted it for the entirety of our shared knowledge of existence of each other. I'm 30 and in no better position than I was when i was 19. I've been up, I've been really down. And what I've come to find is that music went from super pipe dream to complete catharsis but yet i get the same reaction from strangers on the internet who try to hold my personality defects against my art. I get it, but even when the subject matter is self degradation what's the point on trying to throw a couple more lumps at me?

Honestly, you guys have been telling me to write like this since you've known me. Annoying as I've been to everyone around me in my personal life, I seem to agitate you guys exponentially worse.

Therefore, I've pigeon holed myself into "I hate my life, I should do something about it so I'm going to write and hope I feel better." And your guys response has been consistent "kill yourself for making hip hop".

At some point, I just gotta figure you're all full of shit and I've been doing what I needed to all along.

i don't deserve things because i worked hard for them

but you deserve things because reasons

that's cool

also tbh kiddo nobody here actually cares

like seriously that is the premise of disc

only @Bags cared

i miss @Bags

rip @Bags

Lol

You don't care but jump in said thread about music to NOT listen to said music and instead help instigate me or further my depression?

I get it, you don't wanna come off as less of an asshole as you normally do. You can say you're scared to like my music.

Hes saying you dont deserve credit for being better off than him because everyone is in his eyes.

But while we can all pretend that society matters deep down we all know it doesnt. Finny procreated. His purpose is done.

Diode is on his way.

While diodes social standing makes his offspring more likely to succeed, i would bet on little fin dawg. Diodes kid is coming up priveleged without a worry in the world where as finnys kid has the backing of the government and hardships to sharpen him. Diodes kid may rebel and throw his life away like alot of rich kids like my pops, where as the latter has nowhere to go but up

So in essence you are the same to me. A couple of dudes who havent realized that existence means less than nothing, so how others existing view your existence means nothing

Do what you have to do to enjoy this stage so it goes by quick and can be forgotten

i didnt do anything in your thread but post flame emjois in response to knuck and your vagina got all swollen and infected

not my problem

My son knows I love him and that's what matters. Diode has to hide his emotions under a fake bravado facade he uses on the internet. I can't imagine how he is in real life trying to raise a child. I'm financially unequipped to raise him, he's emotionally unequipped. I'm sure when my son is my age hell prefer the former.

I just do what I've always ever done. People are gonna hate it, that's why I said I won't focus on the negative. But 2 times over this thread went from criticism to personal attacks. As with just about every other thread I've ever made, that's probably why I can't make threads anymore.

Point is, if dude doesn't like me he's not going to listen to my music, let alone tell me I did a good job. Instead, he insists on trying to tear me down still a decade later.

Dude owns a site about hip hop, yet discourages probably one of his most consistently decent contributors. Say whatever the fuck you want about be personally, there's no denying I've gotten better. Funny thing about my production is I've used the same program for over a decade, yet my shit sounds considerably better. I've even gone down in terms of equipment, but my shit sounds better. I've been through hell and back, but I've progressed musically.

I can hear it, you've heard it uh oh. And even on one of my most self revealing songs since probably the one I wrote your beat, this dude comes in trying to bait me. It worked, and guess what? Imma use it. Just like I've used all the negativity over the years.

your nihilism is adorbz

also pls stop thinking im rich