I've never paid for vagina. Wouldn't enjoy it. I'd end up wanting to ask them about their lives and shit. GAAAAAAY.

you're in the wrong place if you're looking for happy, well-adjusted people.

word diode

if i'm examining the going ons in my life at the moment that led to this really tho where im at now, its all on my pops.

he had a job but recently quit, he sold his truck to pay off fines from having his license suspended and to reinstate it and shit along with getting an sr22 like i had to do, and he's supposed to be getting a new piece of shit car and a job, so i can get out of here without feeling guilty

but it looks like i'm gonna have to be a piece of shit honestly because each day going by is a day where his money gets lower, and its gonna get to the point where he doesnt have enough and i'm gonna have to beat the fuck out of him because i'm not man enough to actually talk to him about this shit, i'd rather let it fester in my mind and drive me insane until i reach a breaking point

so basically instead of finding nonsense to spend money on i'm just gonna put some money back and move and let him figure it out. i'll feel really bad when he gets evicted, but if he's anything like me he's not gonna do anything until he is forced to.

Split is on-point here. uh-oh, I believe you to be a smart, talented, interesting person based off the glimpses I've had of your online persona. comes down to my boy Einstein: you can't solve problems with the same thinking that caused them in the first place (paraphrased). Change it up. come out to Korea and I'll show you a good time ;)

That there's depression, my friend.

Hope u work thru it & find happiness.

I'll pray for u.

How u kno those hookers don't got the hiv tho? Jesus christ uh oh...u r the truest dirt on this site....I had my doubts...but this confirms it....tho safe money says strik banged a few prostitutes in his day also...lmao

Real talk I've never had to pay for pussy, ever.

I always got a bit I can call for that... rarely do I have a drought, but I do get them every blue moon.

I'm not tryna sound conceited or whatever.. but I'm a good enough looking guy w/ GAME.

Never not once banged a hooker. lol

Lol well there u have it folks.

Uh oh nc dirt person #1

That shit cray....never even knew a person that paid for sex lol......even the stories u typed made me feel weird LOL. That's cool tho lol.

Go to a music festival. Take some high quality lsd. Make dope beats. Step out of your comfort zone. Go to Burning Man (I want to soon,looks nuts) .. but uh, what do I know? The right music tho, right evironment can do numbers..

That nigga a barbarian yo.

Perhaps, your feelings of emptiness are not of depression, but because your life is missing something. It could be something your heart yearns to be purged off, sometimes we feel emptiness because we're too saturated with some thoughts of who we are, habits, and so on. Thus, we feel emptiness because emotionally or even deeper in your mind's labyrinth you feel lost, so your body produces this feeling because it wants to feel more liberated.
Unhappiness does not always mean sadness, and it isn't always remedied by accumulating or finding another thing to do. But, that's all I will say of that. Hope you find your happiness.

here's what i've gathered from your posts (and feel free to correct me if i'm wrong):

you eat like shit, chain-smoke, are inactive, purposefully reclusive, and high during as much of your free time as possible.

for such an intelligent dude you seem to be living like another moron waiting to die. and you've convinced yourself this is the only appropriate mindset for whatever reason.

shocking that you'd develop such neurotic tendencies.

just know that you're doing everything you need to be doing in order to continue feeling shitty.

keep it up.

Deadman w/ the killshot.

Fuuck.

That shit made ME even wanna go outside & take a long walk & talk to ppl.

mindset. once you change it, even if it's done "artificially", will lead to a better outlook, and then you will want stuff, and want to Do stuff.
like reversin the perpetual cycle.

force yourself to watch your personal favorite comedy movies or TV shows. Not all day. Just for a bit. The kind of humor you like might inject some life into your veins.

if your mind won't "turn off" at night and you're just stewing on shit... TRY and tell your mind the truth. That it's pretty much just white noise, and in the morning you won't be "thinking like that". So try'n relax

and talk to your dad (diplomatically and rationally-- set the example for him of the "kind of talk" it will be...expect excuses or defensiveness. forgive him for it and remain calm.)

and probably nix some of the stuff that deadman alluded to. Takes about 30-40 days for your brain to clear. Tough but worth it.

these could also be "notes to self" maybe.

@dead man

i'm inactive in my personal life, 40-50 hours a week i'm busting ass tho, working a physical job,

we're all morons waiting to die. none of us will live forever
@Bags you can't get hiv from saliva bro wake up its 2015 lol. worst case scenario would probably be herpes, but i think, and i'm guessing lol, that the CARRIER has to be showing/in a flare up to pass it on? either way its been almost 2 years since then and i've never shown any symptoms for anything. chlyamidia and gonnorhea or whatever get killed with like antibiotics. std's aint shit yo

also the shit is a system bro. go to your local backpage, find an escort that looks good, google her number, then you will have review sites pop up where people review her on some yelp shit lol

but once again to re-iterate, your not PAYING FOR SEX, you're paying a human to LEAVE after you have sex. no sitting around cuddling. no talking about nonsense. no trying to think of a way to get her to leave, or thinking of a way to leave on your own etc. it removes the feelings of being shitty

and i mean what you go out to the bar, you bought clothes to be fresh, your buying drinks, you're buying gas for your car or paying for an uber, buying shit to eat etc, even one night stands cost you money. meanwhile you can throw 100 bucks at a chick who will never call you out of the blue trying to be your friend, she will blow you like a savage while you do whatever you want and when your finished they leave.

but yea i get it. the consensus seems to be you find happiness in hanging out with others and stuff. doing shit.

the main reason i stopped doing that was to be happy tho. GO FIGURE

I'm the complete opposite, like... I find happiness in other people's misfortune.

The Germans have a word for it, Schaudenfreude? @Sn00p @Muff am I correct?

If I find out my boy lost £300 at the casino last night, I'm on top of the world! I love that shit. I'll send a thousand free texts that instant.

I revel in it.

@MMLP for confirmation of my asshole status

Confirmed haha

Schadenfreude. But yeah, you're correct.

And wow, @uh-oh, that paying them to leave is a fucking clever thought. Sounds like someone would say in True Detective or smth. lol

Freudenschaude means the opposite too I think?

My German not as great as my American is

Take mushies and acid and listen to this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qMzWeZeKcKQ