I had a friend commit suicide. He seemed happier than me with a promising future and of what I knew a happy family with a pleasant upbringing and many qualities most only strive to achieve and he had them naturally. Me and him were polar opposites on many things. He preferred metal music and heavy liquor. I preferred a nice blunt and some old school. He liked bmx and baseball. I was more skating and football. We had more fun than I care to remember because its forever tainted with the loss of a bright star to fill the black void the world was left in.
RIP to all the dead homies

I considered you my brother of sorts
The only person i let my walls down for to join the covenant
There were pits that tried to deter me in my stomach for sure
Couldn't tell if it was punishment or just anxiety running its course
Thought you were a good dude, but your intentions were mad villainy
When i turned my back you stuck the steel in me
I feel defeat, but i guess that it was destiny
To bury a friend, Billie Ellish with the weaponry
Put it to your chest and squeeze, best believe it's rest in peace
Say goodbye to your flesh, but it makes no difference, for years you been dead to me

Told em a story so they don't catch on.
Bout those I pour my drink, flick my ash on.
How that's gone, way I use to place my bets on
Now I bless em, hit em the way I do my sets...
Huh? Another rep down, exhaled then stepped down
How many are left? What is there to flex about

used to hit the block with glocks & spray
no-knocks & raids. i stopped my ways.
i made $5K from stocks today
you told me to put the rock away
& i did & you didn't & you got shot in may

nowadays it's just pot & waves.
cock's gobbled & topped by babes
ink on my shoulder seems to get bolder
the bond don't fade

For my dead homies...My brothers
My Oblique monolith at Giza brothers
My Maginot line of the French brothers
My Wall of the great Orient brothers
My Aqueduct of Roman Nile brothers

All beguiled disposition of necessity brothers
Indispensable, now phylogeny nodes brothers
Branches que the builders brothers
The trunk: financier of development brothers
The roots dissipate evil nutrient brothers
The resistant hunger strike brothers
Opportunists feed a new world brothers
Little leaves blown off mother brothers
Pollination strategy: shock and awe brothers
DNA matches old colossal carve brothers
Know how of ancient working brothers
Treaty of betrayal, ready rehearsal brothers
Seeking in the name of blood line brothers
Yesterday’s construct refined brothers
Today the house is built brothers
Flat, sharp angle line brothers
Rib cage unable to sigh brothers
Stiff outside, hot inside brothers